i’m back. again.

I spent half an hour thinking of a title.

So it’s been a while since my last post -5 months. Every single time I say “okay, i’m gonna keep up with my blog” I end up not doing so.

And honestly I don’t even why, I just can’t seem to write a good post. it’s like I lost all inspiration – not to say motivation.

A couple of times -or many many times- i opened a new page to write, stare at it for a good minute and press that red X.

But sometimes it’s scary how times flies by. it’s like yesterday i was in the middle of finals’ week, now it’s been one month since summer vacation started.

And what is even more scary, is what is happening to the world. Tragic, sad yet depressing. it’s really frustrating.

On another note, I may be having my first time job as a makeup artist for a little fashion show my friend is having in 2 weeks. she was like “look i need you to do the makeup for my first fashion show” and even if i’m scared and stressed i can’t say no to an opportunity. it’ll be a good experience. Can’t wait for it.

i was looking for a cool bloggers’ challenge to do maybe it’ll be fun and motivating a little, so if someone knows any please share with me.

in the meantime, i am gonna get back to my routine now ramadhan is over.

Yoga, reading, writing, makeup and of course get back to learning Korean cause i am even starting to forget what i already learned.

as usual excuse any mistake in here.

Like and comment. Tell me what you do in summer vacation.

until next time -which i hope is really soon-

 

 

 

Yoga

it’s been a while that I have practiced any physical activity. Well beside walking, a lot of walking because our Uni is huge.

Last week I decided to do something. Not to lose weight or build muscles. Just something to be active, release stress.

So I decided to start yoga. it’s an activity, but not too much. it helps woth stress and body tension.

I searched on youtube and found an amazing channel, where there was this 30 day yoga challenge. The channel’s name is Fightmaster Yoga. and the woman behind it is so sweet and I really like her voice. You should check out her channel.

So I put the first video and started that challenge. i discovered so much tension in my muscles and it was so difficult. But i kept going on. it concentrate on breathing to relax and stretching to release tension from your muscles

i’m on day 6 and it is amazing so far. i look forward to that 20 minutes everyday. and i’m happy that i’m finally doing something for me.

Good night everyone

Take care xo

My skin is playing me

Huge dark circles and blemishes and zits all over.

I just hate when my skin is playing me like this. Especially when it’s that time of the month and even if i’m a brunette i get redness showing up.

I’m still in that phase where i’m still figuring out what works and what doesn’t for my skin. And to be honest i’m not scared to try out all sort of products, drugstore to high end.

I know diet is a big part for a nice skin. So every week I convince myself to eat well, so ican feel well and have good skin. But well I can’t. So I end up with giant zits around my mouth. And it’s the place where i hate when one shows up.

these couple of days, i just washed my face with cold water, cleaned it with cotton pads and rose water then applied mosturizer. i just wanted to let it rest from scrubs and masks and exfolianting.

i just hope that when i go back to school next week, it’ll be gone.

Good night.

Disconnected.

A week without wifi at home, or data and no phone ? You think it’ll be horrible.

well, if you work and all you’ll still need your phone. but let me tell you, once in a while, it feels pretty good to just disconnect from the world.

i was done with my finals two weeks ago, and yes, for once i passed without retaking those exams. Hence this month vacation. So i stayed home all the time, i’m not one to go out or do anything.

the second week home, the rooter at home decides on his own to stop working, so no wifi.

and with no wifi, i left a little youtube. i had some data left to check social media, but it was over in no time. and it was the best part.

i spent the week, reading, watching tv, cooking and just doing normal stuff.

i spent some time with myself and it was great.

so i disappeard for more than a week, and absolutely no one asked about me. Great right?

well, it gives some things to think about for the future, about real friends and your life in general. about how life is more than your twitter and facebook page or good pictures on instagram.

i’m definitely doing this more often.

Share with me if you ever had a disconnect week.

my last post was so long ago, so i hope everyone had great holidays and an amazing year’s start so far.

until next time, hoping really soon, take care.

like always, excuse any mistake, i don’t even read proof my posts, and I should start doing it.

-Wass’-

 

 

winter break. or not.

finally it’s winter break ! yay ! but nay !

winter break for me is the two weeks prior to finals.

so i need to work my butt off during those two weeks in order to pass my finals. which for the previous three years at uni, i ddin’t and ended up retaking them for another month. and let me tell you, it is no fun.

winter break is also the time where i get anxiety and panic attacks the most. i really don’t get well with stress, so this month, i get pratically sick, phisically, cause i can’t sleep and eat, and mentally and psychologicaly because of stress and exams.

But this year, i decided that i am going to work so i won’t retake exams and get that month of vacation in february.

i’ve been working on my stress and anxiety for a while now, and it’s time to really “do” what i’ve been working on.

i have determination, but to be honest not that mucch motivation, because i am really tired.

if anyone has advice on stress, anxiety, exams or anything that can help, it is really welcomed.

until next time, take care.

and excuse any mistake 🙂

Frustrating

i swear hair is so frustrating. yes it can be nice and beautiful and all but then, it hurts when you put it up in a bun or a ponytail, it is a mess when you let it down, it is a messy curly nest when you let it natural, it is so flat when you straighten it.

and the best part, when you have to be somewhere, just like that huge pimple, your hair is just there living it’s life in a form of total mess but then when you’re home alone, it’s like you’re out of a hair commercial.

and my problem is with cutting it. when it is long, i see a girl with a nice short hair cut, i want it short. but once i cut it, i’ll see a girl with long hair passing by and be like “oh man why did i cut it, i’m not cutting it again any time soon”.

but at the end of the day, every girl loves her hair no matter what. or as often as possible.

 

i hope everyone is doing great.

please share with me your thoughts about hair.

until next time, take care.

So Hi !

I can’t seem to keep something going on in my life. I’m not one for comittements you can say.

I always wanted a blog and always was like “i’m sure i’m not gonna be able to keep it” and blamed my lack of confidence.

But then I challenged myself and got a blog. And as expected a couple of weeks later, I haven’t posted a thing.

I have been in such a funk these days i don’t know why. Feeling so lazy and tired.

Even if I go to uni everyday, there’s this routine that settled in my ife and hate being in a routine and when i get in that mood, i start hating everything and everyone around me.

so right now, i need to get it together. i need to get my life together and be productive and live my life.

i decided to start working out after who knows how long. not to lose weight or gain muscles, more like to be active and maybe help a little for my anxiety. i also decided to focus on myself and try to be more happy and maybe get to work on my confidence. even though i don’t know how to do it yet.

if anyone has some tips and advice please help me !

and i’ll try to work on actual intresting posts ( not me rambling about my life) once a week.

until next time, take care.

correct any mistake please.

Social life is so complicated.

okay so today i wanna talk about “friends” !

having a social life and a number of friends is so complicated.

because let’s face it, maybe one of your x friends really cares about you.

everyone thinks only about their little self, it’s always about them, even when it is about you.

you meet a girl, you get to know her, you become best friends. you tell each other everything, share eveything, spend your time together and time passes by. when time passes by, we don’t grow older in age only, it’s your whole person that’s gonna change.

you can’t expect someone to be the same when in middle school then high school then college??

you’re gonna age, you’re discover things, you’re do other things, you’re gonna take some risks, you’re gonna meet new people, good and bad for you… and all that is gonna change your thinking, your personality and your person in general. you’re gonna have more experience in certain things in life and be more mature.

and this is what people don’t understand. you don’t chose to change, time makes you change.life makes you change.

i have come to the point where i don’t like most of my friends anymore. i honestly don’t know why, it’s probably something they did or said but what can i do, everyone knows that i’m such a sensitivereally really shy person.

sadly i am shy to the point where i don’t even speak out my honest opinion, to the point where even if someone hurts me or say something wrong to me, i’ll act like nothing’s wrong. i’ll just laugh out.

by now most people should’ve learnt that when i’m just talking and rambling and laughing like a crazy girl, that i’m hurt or upset or just sad. but no, people don’t care about you.

i know, i know, this is really bad. but i am such an introverted person. i like to keep it to minimal talking.

if you see me in person, you won’t believe this, cause i’m just a fun person who likes to laugh.

i still haven’t share my blog with anyone, so  i’ll publish this, but i’ll most probably delete after.

as always excuse any mistake and please correct me.

if someone wants to know me, i am open to any question.

until next time, take care. xo

Where can I buy some self confidence ?

I have always wanted a blog and I finally got the courage to open one. but i still don’t have the confidence to post the things that i want to post, like the things the blog is supposed to be about let along share it with friend.

and as it is now, you think it’s like a personal blog which is not meant to be like this.

the sad part is, i don’t need self confidence only for my blog, i need self confidence in general  in my life.

i don’t even have the confidence to talk with people.

i see people reading my posts and being like “wow this girls spend her time insulting herself”, guess what, i think that too.

if only we could buy some confidence, i would anything for that.

i am thinking maybe i’ll be doing that 30 days blogging challenge. maybe it’ll get a little more exciting.

classes finally started, and as for now i like it.

and as for my driving lessons, i can finally say after almost a month, it’s going pretty well. i’m starting to get the hand on it and as soon as i start driving, my fear disapears a little but i still get anxious.

now i really need to get the courage to go see a doctor really soon for my anxiety.

it’s 9.30pm, i have class tomorrow so i’ll just try to sleep.

excuse any mistake.

until next time, take care.

shop online? of course not.

i spend so much time looking at make up online. maybe 2 to 3 hours. and i buy absolutely nothing.

sometimes i cry wanting it, sometimes i’m thankful there’s no paypal and i have no money, because let’s be real i would buy everything. like EVERYTHING.